London Diary: God must be crazy

London Diary- God must be crazy

The last to lasts month’s devastation was enough to prove that God must be crazy and here we go again. Another religious place in Uttarkashi is swept by raging river. Why? Why of all the people, God is punishing those who travelled terrains, passed tough routes, planned their savings and went all the way to see him? Why is he making an overly loved and worshipped place a mass cremation ground? What is he trying to say? What is he trying to prove? Is this an indication of the nearing end of the world or is this a global warming? 

I am sure we all have thought of this when we saw houses being swept away in seconds but I was a bit shaken when I saw the idol of Shiva slowly merging in Ganga. For some reason, the face of Shiva emitted anger of being betrayed. Why? ‘Did we betray God?’ I asked myself while browsing my regular FB page and then like flash, the answer came. We have got what we deserved. Where were we trying to find God? Why were we running like maniacs to places that have long ago been abandoned by the supreme light? The soul of these religious places has left, leaving behind just a stoned structure that chose to merge itself with nature than become a victim of human greed. The culture that started with just one sound of calming OM has so called expanded to numerous chants that sound more like noises by people who are trying to speed it up to fit their working schedule. Where is the soul that should accompany the chants? Where is the intention to connecting to the supreme? Even the prayers have become a chance to prove your social hold and we all have seen that everywhere. The one who sings the loudest in the group is apparently a bigger devotee or maybe the one who showered big bundles of money has a bigger heart. What a sham? Where is the love?

While discussing this with some friends, a few thought that this was the indication of nearing end of the world because of the rise in negativity. It did make sense but I was still uneasy. What is negativity? Its energy and energy is neither negative nor positive; our thoughts are bad or good, our intentions are pure or impure so negative energy is nothing but our own thoughts and deeds then why did God punish the nature for something that’s within us? All these thoughts were storming in while I was driving and I must admit I was not quite aware of the direction that I went to. Something was wrong and I was desperate to find the reason for the blaring anger in Shiva’s eyes. Just then like a flash the answer came in a line from a song that suddenly became audible. ‘It’s all alive within us’.

Of course! I thought. This storm, these rains, the flood, the end of the world; it’s not about earth and nature; it’s about the devil and unwanted stuff within us. 

These floods were just manifested in physical form to show how to wash out the fake feelings, impure intentions and hypocrisy in one blow and still keep the temple of truth intact in our hearts, just like the Kedarnath temple that remained unaffected by the angry rains. The end of the world is not going to happen outside, it’s something that we have to do within us. End the bad thoughts, end everything that has taken us away from truth, end the noises of numerous unwanted chants and bring us down to just one sound- the sound of our breathing, the life force and gift of God. We all have to move from proving our love for God to others to feeling the love of God within. When this happens; the temple of truth, the enlightened light and the true self will shine inside our hearts and thus will come a new era. 

SO all those who are talking about the end of the world, think again, maybe it’s already happening inside you.

Ekta Bajaj